The day after my 24th birthday, I woke up face down on my living room floor.
I couldn’t remember the last 12 hours. I slowly and clumsily made my way to the bathroom and stared at my reflection…
My eyes were bloodshot and swollen. I thought “I have got to change…” only moments before chugging the remnants of a bottle of vodka and passed out again. Even as the liquid raced down my throat, I knew, no, my soul knew, I’m meant for more.
That moment was pivotal. What I finally did after the alcohol wore off altered the course of my life. I didn’t just look in the mirror that morning and then fall back into old patterns the next day as many people do when trying to change. Instead, I made a decision: I committed to change and went to work …on myself.
Who was I? How did I really want to live? If I had just this one life, what was I going to do with it?
I committed myself to internal and external transformation. After 10 years of partying, I walked away from drugs and alcohol. Instead of pouring booze into my body, I started pouring myself into growth and finding out who I really was, without substances. I packed my bags, sat next to strangers on airplanes, and set out to find the truth of who I was as I explored different countries.
During my own version of Eat, Pray, Love (before it was a massive hit) I sought out what they didn’t teach us in school. Like how to understand our inner world of thought and emotion and how the two in combination produce our reality.
Then it all clicked – by shifting the way we think, how we feel and our behaviors we can rebuild and reclaim our lives in every area. But first, we must come face to face with the patterns and mental-programming that currently run the show
We have to both confront (look directly in the eyes of the truth) and destruct (burn, tear up, declutter) the old ways of being before rebuilding.
Most people live their entire lives in programmed and habitual patterns that never allow them to create the life that they know on some level they are meant for.
My line in the sand moment came when I chose sobriety and ended my relationship. Shortly after walking away from the relationship, the man I loved passed away. His death catalyzed my growth and seeking of life’s truths even deeper. Through the grief of our lost relationship and his passing, I went deeper within myself.
Fully realizing that this life is temporary. I asked myself powerful questions, again:
Who do I want to be?
What kind of relationships do I want to create and nurture?
How do I truly cultivate internal fulfillment and peace?
Deep down, I knew that I was meant to live a beautiful life. Yet, my external reality felt so far from that deep inner knowing, I committed myself to the process of tapping into and unveil the person I knew I was capable of becoming.
All the false perceptions of myself that held me back? Yeah, I went to work dismantling all of it. Who I thought I had to be and how I thought I was supposed to live – I destroyed them.
We all have that ideal version of ourselves that lives deep down inside somewhere. The part of you that knows you are meant for more, that knows when it’s time to create change in your life and that believes there’s more to this existence than going through the motions – it’s real when you tap into it.
Few people know how to access that deep down inside and actually bring it forward.
It’s not all unicorns and rainbows like some spiritual and personal development coaches will sell you on. I might look sweet, but I’m not going to sugarcoat any of this for you.
You must be willing to look at what’s going on internally. You have to be willing to confront the patterns and ways of being. And when you do, you set yourself free.
I help clients with the internal work.
It’s the secret to everything you’ve ever wanted to live, including external success and internal fulfillment.
Through my own trials and tribulations and deeply understanding the inner workings of who we are and how we create change in our lives, I went on to study and become certified in Spiritual Psychology at the University of Santa Monica.
I now use my education along with my personal life experiences and natural intuitive abilities to help you navigate your inner world to access fulfillment, joy and peace and to achieve the outer results and success you desire.
You see, life isn’t about only having positive experiences. There are going to be pains. There are going to be challenges. There are going to be times you look around and think…
“How did I even get here?”
And truthfully, those are the best moments. Because if you’re willing
to do the work, they become the foundation to building your beautiful future.
Which is what I’m here to help you do. Build your beautiful future and life. To bring forth from within you the deep down inside and make it your tangible life. Because that’s what you deserve.
If this is your only life… what are you going to choose? What are you going to create?